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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 3, 2007 20:41:23 GMT -5
I've waited so long to feel like this, So free.... Yet i am still confined with in my guilded cage of smoke and mirrors, Shedding the chains that once held me captive.... Openning my eyes to reality.... The smoke is slowly disappearing and i can see the real me... NO more glitter and lies.... I beheld the truth with in my own eyes.....
I'm running from things I can not see Fear is a constant companion to me I'm afraid to be left alone forever No one nows how alone i am I have no one left to listen to me They all left long ago.... There is no use in running any more Everything has caught up to me.............
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 3, 2007 20:48:43 GMT -5
Retreating into the darkness of your tainted soul, hiding from the light..... SIN.... Lossing yourself with in yourself, looking for all you shattered childhood dreams, trying to see through this evil mask..... INNOCENCE..... Nothing is pure anymore, nothing is truely evil either... Nothing is the same... Who is to blame?
Bound and burried deep with in This is where i confess my sin In a book i call my friend This is where i must keep my secrets...
Under lock and key This is where they must be All that's there is part of me...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 4, 2007 9:20:13 GMT -5
The world is crashing down around me, every day another dream is crushed, Every where i go i see the truth behind the lies, i wish someone would wash the tears from my eyes...
I wish the world would leave me be, please stop crushing me, and just let me be free....
Life is reality.... Dreams are dillusions.... And I'm stuck somewhere in between.
With all sleep comes dreams With all hope comes reality Nothing is as you want it to be....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 4, 2007 11:03:07 GMT -5
Life is a sequence of thoughts and emotions
Nothing is ever the same
Every thing is always changing
Thoughts and emotions are all tangeled together in knots
Nothing can be the same forever
Things are constantly changing.....
MY patience is wearing thin Why won't you let me in? I gave you all i could give You gave me a better reason to live....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 4, 2007 12:30:30 GMT -5
Heaven is to far away
I don't know how i'll make it through the day
You are just a little to far away
What happened to yesterday?
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 4, 2007 14:32:42 GMT -5
I am the Queen of Misfortune I'm the Princess of Pain I'm the Lady of Torment And i love to dance in the rain.
My life is full of rainy days The sun don't shine at all The sky is always grey.
Love.... It is a fatel deises that will be the end of us all...
It's late Is it ever coming? I guess not... Why is it not here yet? I'm late But i guess it's another unkept date... Then why am i so worried.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 5, 2007 19:31:52 GMT -5
My mind swims in your memories... How sweet you are now, How sweet you where then, The pictures in between never end....
DREAMS.... A drifting mind looking for something Visions of the future or the past
DREAMS.... Things to remind us their is reality Some thing lost but not forever
DREAMS.... Bearers of things unknown or untimely forgotten Things we wish we had or knew
DREAMS.... Conveyers of thoughts and emotions Messages from the other side
DREAMS.... Fragile glimpses of who we are are who we use to be Broken childhood memories and wishes
DREAMS.... Tears of the child who know she must grow old Wisdom given to the young who don't understand until it's to late
DREAMS.... Shadows of all that's been forgotten Thoughts of a different kind
DREAMS.... Unburried power with in us all Thoughts of a telapathic or god like mind
DREAMS.... They are all secret sins we hide deep with in Things that bridge the gaps of space and time
DREAMS.... They are what we make them I hope yours are as pleasent as mine.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 5, 2007 20:26:28 GMT -5
Love is another lifetime away All is lost today.... I always try to move forward but i always end up falling back And now there is no one left to catch me I hit the ground hard But in time i'll be on my feet again.
This is a work in progress. I am currently writing it into a poem.
She lies broken and bleeding on the floor Why did you desecrate her? She didn't ask for this.... Now you're pleading the 5th She blames herself for what you did Can't you rid her of the blame? She can never hold her head up high 'Cause she is filled with shame But it's not her fault....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 6, 2007 9:06:56 GMT -5
I'm waiting beneath the old oak tree next to the wrought iron gates of this forsaken cemetary Waiting for he who whispered sweet promises in my ears Now I shead my silent tears The moon is full, the time is near Where is he who i hold dear? I'll flee this world but all in vain I am no longer sain Love has done this to me Bound me here eternally Here i wait beneath this old oak tree Waiting for he with whom I'm meant to be....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 7, 2007 13:42:08 GMT -5
Still working on these;
There i go With all my pain and sarrow You hit me once You hit me twice Now my heart has payed the price You cheated on me I forgave you You lied to me I cried You controlled me I played along Now the game is over I figured you out You say you're sorry But that don't work You say you'll never do it again But i know it's a lie All you say now doesn't matter It's all over Go play your game with someone elsa.
Another day goes by And i'm sure you can hear me cry I feel as if all you've said and done means nothing anymore So many emotions out of place... I wish i could get them all straight I keep trying to convince myself that it's okay But i don't know how much longer i can pretend to be blind I just don't know what to do So many emotions out of place... So much that i don't know... There is only so much i can take I know i am bound to break.
I've finished the poem in my July 5th posting. I just don't feel comfortable enough to post it anywhere but here. It's called Rape.
She lies broken and bleeding on the floor Why did you desecrate her? She didn't ask for this Now you're pleading the 5th She blames herself for what you did Can't you rid her of the blame? She can never hold her head up high 'Cause she is filled with shame And you are the one to blame...
She lies alone with those memories everyday Why did you break this fragile girl? No one deserves this Now you are free to do it again She can never truely live or trust again.
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I just remembered how cruel and cold people can be Not like it matters to me I have become that which i feared Void of all emotions and hallow inside Is there any where better to hide? I am the shadow on the wall I head the nights alluring call And as the years pass and i look back There will be nothing great to see except the emptiness in me I am truely alone Maybe i'll sing my own death song And now i long for how things use to be The sweet inocence of youth long lost and never found Now i am pale and disrespected,Totally neglected But still hold on to that faint glimmer of Hope That some day i'll be free Free to be ME Not some one elses patsie
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 8, 2007 9:14:59 GMT -5
I'm lost... Some where cold and dark Smells like death... This is what it's come to So alone... Don't know where to go
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The past is a spiteful thing Making you remember all the bad times more than the good All those hurtful words they said Children can be so cruel Being different was a crime And the cold stares and words where my punishment Could never be normal no matter how hard i tried All those cruel children made me bleed Pain unending.... Are so i thought But then as i grew older i relized it wasn't just me There are more of us than they'd like to see Maybe i'm not so alone after all.
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I feel the searing pain Twist the dagger a little more My hurt,pain,and blood are now yours I've left this mortal coil behind hoping to never return...
But here i am once more... Starting over... is it possible? I don't want to be here I never did....
But here i am living it all over again What did i do to deserve this? I've done this all before......... I need peace and that can only be obtained through my souls release.
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You say you can see it in my eyes It's true rage that i can not hide I see you with her all the time You say she is just a friend This is where the rages begins Burning and tearing at my soul Shattering all the truth i know The rage is rising The red lights glow in my eyes It's true rage you can not comprhend I know what you two did It's not a secret you can keep The rage is there But all i can do is stare Visions of all the terrible things I could do to you two cross my mind But i know i have to bide my time Make you wait in fear I now know the time is near.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 8, 2007 13:52:07 GMT -5
I call this one MASK
I wear this mask to hide the pain This smile is really false Plastered on my pale white face like a drunken smirk No knows what to really think When they see the real me I seem to be just a little to scary People just look and stare And i just pretend not to care But deep in side i ache No knows how hard it is to grow When there is always someone to pull you down How hard i've tried to carry on When all i know is pain My hurt can not be contained My eyes express it so vividly Like a cold drawn portrait that some one once drew of me Now this mask in which i wear is about to break The final straw is how people don't give But they sure do love to take......
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While there is always some one to build you up There are always two to take you down.
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I know what you are gonna' say before you even speak I see it in your eyes Your finger tips run over my soft lips and your soul speaks to me It speaks with out words But i understand I seem to be lost in this feeling of knowing The only way to go is up... Rising far above cloude 9 just to be with you Are souls touch and for an instant i feel whole... Then are souls are torn apart, And bound up in mortal flesh.... Searching for you once more My soul is tainted with sin But still i search for you Knowing that when i find you i will be complete. -----------------------------------------------------------------
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 9, 2007 11:24:37 GMT -5
My life is like a leaf on the wind.... Not quiet sure where it's going.
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I think my muse is dying This time i think I'll stop trying She won't stop crying What did i do?
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Breath in this empty silence Finally at peace Or at least for the moment My mind is straining to stay awake Don't want to dream The demons are waiting there for me To bring me down and tear me apart Life isn't worth living if you dare not to dream My eyes wish to close but i will not let them Sleep is coming and i can not stop it. Here the demons come.....
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The evil dolls sing can't get it out of my head
The bugs crawl in The bugs crawl out They'll eat my brain from the inside out.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 9, 2007 21:47:21 GMT -5
This one is Lucid memories and Dreams Light refracts But does it bend? Like those cold ice daggers he did send, Plunging through my chest I can feel pain once more beneath my breasts Thought i was hallow inside But now i know we are all the same, And there is no where left to hide.... Those piercing eyes filled with violent lust They burn through me and i wish to flee No more can you have me You are no longer welcome in my mind Just leave me be... Let us just leave it at i hate you I wish you would just disappear But every night you end up right back here Causing me endless pain This is some thing i thought i could contain.... Was i such an arrogant fool? To think i could escape your grasp so easily You stalk me as if you are my shadow And this seems to be a never ending battle... Just go curl up and die some where I just don't care You just need to let me go And i'll do the same My soul is not some meek creature which you can tame... I am a wild soul, And i will not bend to your will I wish i could swallow your lies like a suicide pill... Deafen my ears to your seductive plea Poke out my minds eye so i don't have to see, The fact that you are slowly killing me.... I like this one, maybe i'll title it and post it some where. This is my true inner feelings after some hard looking back. Man am i not liking this feeling. --------------------------------------------------------------------
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 10, 2007 13:46:35 GMT -5
Listless,lifeless Alone and confused Drowning in this sea of toxic thoughts of being used
Pale, neglected Totally tired and disrespected Now my immortal soul has been infected
Strange,tainted Loved yet hated I think it's time for me to be sedated
Silent,violent Anger is now unleashed no longer caged up like a feral beast It stalks around in my mind looking for a feast
Lied to,denied Can not seam to forget no matter how hard i've tried Will never be fully satisfied, so i'll crawl away and find some place to hide...
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The nightmares come and plague my sleeping mind Cries of pain rip through my dreams I can never forget......
But i don't want to remember... Nothing has been the same since then... I can never be free from the guilt....
NO one understands..........
I'm certain we will meet again, But until then i'll remain Unforgiven.
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Silence.... Pure unending peace The silence is now shattered and scattered by the sounds of heavy footsteps They are coming for me...
They come to strap me down to a stake Is all i believe in a mistake? I'll be surprised if they don't drowned me in the lake
Persecuted for my beliefs Now they make me beg God for a quick release The fire beneath my feet shall consume me But in the end i will not make a plea....
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Pick up the pieces Get a hold of yourself Nothing is as bad as it seems At least i still have my dreams...
Escape this world which is slowly falling apart, From the inside out There is nothing i can do but sit back and pout...
Life is dragging me a long like a leaf on the wind Don't know where i'm going, But i can faintly remember where i've been...
Drunk on despair Giving up on life with out a care Yet curiously i stare....
Lucid nightmares stuck in my head Everything bleeds red I feel so empty and dead....
Life has no meaning for someone who is full of fear Their are no wrong answers here Only darkened dreams and half shed bloody tears.....
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