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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 6, 2007 9:17:54 GMT -5
My hands run over your smooth skin, I smile inward, I never planned to fall in love, With some one like you....
So cold, And distant, Almost if you're hiding something from me...
I guess that is just who you are, I know you'll never change, But maybe one day you'll let me in...
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Pain springs forth, From your hands, As you lay them upon me...
Blood drips, Flows, And streaks, Across my once pristine cheeks...
Your love is so twisted, Cold and cruel....
You are the epitome of malicious evil, Taking insurmountable pleasure from the pain you cause me...
Smile as i bleed, Laugh as i cry, Tempt me with pleasures, That all lead to unpleasant memories trapped behind my eyes...
You are a monster, I can not escape...
I am stuck in this hellish limbo, In a game of give or take...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 7, 2007 5:16:16 GMT -5
I can't sleep... All thous Autism facts running through my head...so depressing. I started writing this for my oldest son, it's not quiet done. It's called Autism Speaks...
Autism speaks... Maybe not in words that we can all understand...
But it's there... Buried deep with in his childish mind...
I always seem to ask myself, Am i the one to blame? Will he always be this way?
His lips move, Strange utterances stumble out...
I don't understand, He begins to shake and cry, And no one can seem to answer my question "Why"?
His innocents labeled, With a word that belittles him...
This word that seems so cold... My boy... he has Autism... Are so I'm told.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 7, 2007 19:49:22 GMT -5
Lost on this....
People always told me i'd never amount to SHIT, Guess they where right in there own way...
I'm still sitting here, Letting people beat me down, I just take the abuse, What do i have to lose?
I'm still grasping for things just out of reach, Always some one there to smack my hands away...
One day i'll show them all... That i'm worth some thing, That i've amounted up to my own beliefs and dreams...
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Death... It's around us every where...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thinking of having this engraved in my tombstone one day...
When i'm gone, No one left to carry on...
No one left to pass this torch on to, No one here to say "I do"...
I'll leave this place, Full of regrets....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 9, 2007 8:16:26 GMT -5
Bits and pieces, not finished yet:
Each thrust, Tears a new hole, In my already worn, And faded soul...
The beast in you, Delves deeper... Wishing to subdue me, If only for a moment...
Pacify your inner beast, By defiling me....
There is only so much i can take, I know i'm bound to break...
Tears streak my face, Silent screams fall from my lips, On to deaf ears...
I am left alone again, Left empty and broken, Once more....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 9, 2007 15:43:05 GMT -5
Not done yet: I'm inspired by Shane....
Paint me a picture, And you will see, The endless possibilities, That lye with in me....
That brush that you wield, With such pride, Paints stunning pictures, In which i wish i could hide...
You steal my thoughts, You draw them so well, I call it your gift, You call it your hell...
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Memories... Fragmented dreams... Left to fester in the dark places of my mind...
I've left all good things behind, I've become my own worst enemy... Everything bad has all ready been done to me...
I am empty, But one day i'll be full...
Of love, Laughter, And happy feelings, Or at least that's what i'm told......
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 10, 2007 2:57:17 GMT -5
Half asleep, half awake, definitely NOT finished.
Every thought, A forceful dream...
Pushing, Stabbing, At my already heavy mind...
Something takes hold of me, Tightly, Coldly, Callously picking at me...
My mind wanders, Into its own Abyss, My happy memories i do miss...
I'll never be, The perfect me....
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My world is off balanced, I feel as if i am going to fall...
Into perpetual darkness, Of suicidal scars and tears.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------
First to bed, Last to rise, Stillborn dreams still stuck in your eyes....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 10, 2007 11:35:08 GMT -5
Love... A four letter word with emotion attached to it...
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So cold, Lost, Alone again...
She waits beneath that tree, Waiting so patiently, For some one who is lost to her...
Tears slide, Drip, Streak down her perfect face...
She endures, Suffers in silence, But she still exists...
In this cold world, Which lies and deceives, And everyone expects her to believe, All the cold truths they've concieved...
Closed off, Subdued her humanity, Nothing left, But endless unpleasant possibilities....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 10, 2007 16:23:14 GMT -5
Working on this while tracing Shane's scars... so many scars... each with a story to tell.
My world is off balanced, I feel as if i am going to fall...
Into perpetual Darkness, Of suicidal scars and tears...
My scars, They define me... They remind me, Of who I am, And who i use to be...
All those painful memories, Of the terrible things i did...
Cuts, Bruises, Throat openned wide, Things i'd rather forget...
But they are right there, On the surface of my skin...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 11, 2007 17:48:10 GMT -5
Working on it so it's not done yet: Sex
We are alone again, I wish to kiss your lips, Those lips that nibbled on my ear, Last night....
Vivid imagery enters my mind, Your hands reach for me, And i willing surrender...
The abrasive feel of skin, Upon skin, Pain is inevitable for me, Tears spill forth from my eyes, Yet you kiss them away, And smile...
That smile, It takes me away, To a place of where i feel so free...
I wish to ride you, Until the sun comes up, And caresses my back...
Warm rays licking my spine, Making me feel you once more...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 12, 2007 19:32:04 GMT -5
I'm here waiting, Still waiting, For something that isn't coming...
Wish i could have made you understand, How i felt when you took my hand, But the perfect words always eluded me...
But you're gone, I don't know where, But when you left, I ceased to care....
I closed myself away, Hide myself from the light of day...
I'm still in hiding, From myself, And my true feelings...
Never could really understand, Why you bothered to take my hand, If all you where going to do, Was leave me in the end...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 13, 2007 10:47:25 GMT -5
I started this a few days ago in the 3 word challenge. I like it and i'm going to work on it here some more.
Limpid after glow of love, Resting on his world worn shoulders...
An icon burned into my mind, A simple memory, Of a more pleasant time...
This feeling, This love i have for you, Will outshine all my fears...
With you i am truly free, Not bound by convention, Are biased reality...
-- You gave me hope, Though i hide it behind my eyes...
Pleasant memories, In which my happiness resides...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 13, 2007 21:38:18 GMT -5
Working on it: True Feelings
I fall, Into the darkness, Of my unconscious mind...
Dreaming, Of things that have past, And things yet to come...
Wish i didn't have to see, Wish i didn't have this ability...
It pains me to have to know, I'll have to live this life alone...
You say you love me, But it's all a ruse, A never ending game, In which to amuse...
I'm lost in your eyes, In the words you whisper to me, They haunt me...
I can never escape, Never truly be free, Not with the way that you chain me...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 14, 2007 13:52:05 GMT -5
Stuck in the Darkness searching for the Light
I am stuck... In vetigo, Never ending Limbo...
Stuck in this fluid motion, In which we call life...
Trapped here... By my desires, And my eternal strife...
Nothing to set my mind at ease, Everyone just does as they please...
A path of destruction paved in my mind, I wish for a more happy and simpler time, When people where truly genuine...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 16, 2007 8:52:25 GMT -5
Working On it:
I'm tired of living this sham of a life, This shell of empty existance...
I'm tired of all the lies, And the deciet...
The hallow words, And empty promises...
I've shed my share of tears, Now it's time for me to go...
I wish to leave, But the love i have for you, Holds me here, It chains me down...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Aug 18, 2007 19:44:15 GMT -5
Memories... Tainted and faded, Like my lucid dreams.
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Darkness, There is no light for me, It's all been smothered out, By cruel company...
Mind left to linger on your choice of words, You wish to make me bleed, And i wish to make you burn...
I suffer in silence, Forever do i mourn, My choices, My chances, No one but you to scorn...
You took what you could, And destroyed the rest of me, But don't worry, I heard Hell has great company...
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