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Post by twistedangel on Jul 13, 2013 1:19:36 GMT -5
I done things...both good an bad Some bad for good intentions, some good for good An yeah, bad things to be bad I can handle in me head all the above, is all just me being me..for good or bad LOL
But what of those things we do...I do that aint meant ? KK so good stuff is all good right ? Kinda makes me a saint for a hour But the bad ? Shit that makes me a shit for a lifetime
When sorry just don't cut it...murdered trust I aint wounded the love of me life, I nearly killed him, or more correctly WE nearly killed him And why ? Well thats the worst part cos I have no answer or excuse
Actually plenty of excuses, but they is all bullshit Am a bad person...end of Pitifully on me knees begging a forgiveness But like a vase once shattered then glued Is never really the same after
Should I stay or should i go...Clash line Dont wanna go but, how does a drunk driver who killed his family look into a mirror ? Thats how i feel..thats me future Strive so hard to be good, in the end...just rotten to the core
*this is... i dunno wot... niether poem or prose..i do this kinda write somtimes..mostly none ever read by anyone but meself..kinda a 'in the moment' write..somtimes ther is a sort of poetry to them somtimes they is just lines of thoughts..an cos i aint written nothing in ages..an not sure exactly if i will again anytime soon...also i need the distraction from life at the mo..thought i'd post it
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Post by LonelyForsaken on Jul 13, 2013 20:09:35 GMT -5
It’s not very poetic but it is the beginning of a poem. I do this a lot. I just advised Jaded to write like this. When we are emotionally compromised it is impossible to be objective or think/write in the creative way we want to but then again, there are always exceptions. Extreme emotion can produce amazing writes, I just never expect it to happen, but I write it down if I can, and come back to it later. It’s not as though I have never posted this kind of write either. We want to be understood and sometimes we just need a hug. *HUGS* I have a good idea what you did and I can say I have never done it myself but it doesn’t matter because I have still been there too. Just in different ways. It reminds me of a story I read called; “The Measure of a Man.” It applies to women too. How we let it affect/teach us is our true measure. Do I say; “To hell with it. My efforts are in vain. I’ll do what I want regardless of who it hurts and damn the consequences?” Or, do I use the lesson and all the hurts, mine and theirs, to remember and remind me that I cannot be selfish? It is not the measure that compels me to take the harder path. It is because I must live with myself and I hope others can live with me too. It is a constant struggle for me too. Despite all this I am alone so why do I continue on this path? I’m trying new things as often as I can but I still stop and think of the others involved in my choices before I act. Why? Because when I have hurt someone I love (or anyone for that matter) and have lost even a tiny portion of their trust, I hurt more than I hurt them. I care. And it is impossible to regain what was then and repair what now is. I am pro choice because I stubbornly believe we all must be allowed to make our own choices and then live with them. You know I think too much. Why do I think too much? Because I have been right where you are now and it hurts too much. *HUGS* What can you do besides learn? Apologize and cry, then apologize again and cry some more, and hope. Hope there is more beyond the crying and dying. More hugs XXXXXXXXXX “Am a bad person...end of” – Are you a bad person? This is always a debatable subject and often semantics. We are human and all that word means. What matters is the ability to become a better person. What matters is care. IMO if you care, and you obviously do, than your not all bad. And on the scales of measure, care has a weight far greater than gold.
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Post by windfog on Jul 14, 2013 0:26:51 GMT -5
Hello, lady! You picked up the main question - what's good and what's bad? As for me I don't know answer ... Alas. At least such answer that fits for everyone. Though there are a lot of people that shout out - we know! They are liars. I think we make our inner world and we are judges there. But common morale, that sl*t, says what our chiefs want. That's why (one of courses) good&bad are elusive, ghostly and usually good for somebody else but not us. Okay. Great writing, lady! Clever, deep, thought provoking. W.F.
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Post by twistedangel on Jul 16, 2013 0:19:13 GMT -5
after a few days of thinking shouting screaming crying feeling sorry for meself feeling angry at meself..but more importantly really 'talking' things over...IMO theres no such thing as good or bad just consequences of actions an weather you can live with them or not i guess if i am a evil Eve..so f*cking wot ..i happen to like apples that dont mean to say i still dont feel bad an guilty about wot i done..I DO..but its done..learn an move on IMO those that dwell to long on lifes journey just get stuck in the mud an left behind cheers guys an i may turn this into somthing one day but right now i think i'll draw a line under it until i stop cringing about the hole incident
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