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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 11, 2007 15:15:25 GMT -5
Words to be spoken are meant to be broken.
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I see through eyes, But they are not mine Evey thing looks so familiar but out of place So strange and hauntingly real.....
Wish to wake from this lucid dream I wonder if anyone could here me scream? Maybe this is more than it seems...
Driven into the darkest corner i could find Do you think that I'm unkind? --------------------------------------------------------------------------
Love is a cruel mistress with a whip. And she loves to use it. My heart bears the scars to prove it.
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Death is a cold,calculating man with cruel and greedy hands.
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Life is a road trip in which we all must take, Must not worry about the mistakes we make.
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Arise from the ashes, Rose from the dust, She has made a perfect home for all of us.
She is nice and does not lie Even she could get angel's to cry
She is so caring and warm But beware her wrath, it's like a sea swept storm. ----------------------------------------------------------------------
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 12, 2007 13:29:15 GMT -5
Anger consumes, Engulfs, Burns, Controls, And once it has you in it's fiery grip it won't ever let you go.
Anger is Dangerous, Toxic, Hateful, Spiteful, And anger is always right there,just waiting to be unleashed.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 12, 2007 18:10:28 GMT -5
Friends are earned not won. Best friends are forever. (Not all the time) Time with friends is well spent and never wasted. Lessons learned, Hugs given, Tears cried, Life saved, And before my very eyes, i am happy.
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Promises broken, Truth so bitter cold, Lost in that moment of being told, "Man are you old."
Life is not over, I will not let it be, Not like this, between you and me.
Time to make up for things not done It is are turn to have a special moment in the sun.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 13, 2007 5:40:14 GMT -5
Valkyrie
A strong bitter wind blows To where i don't know
I can faintly smell the lilacs in bloom But this place looks like death, a cold silent tomb
Bodies scattered every where on the ground My heart begins to pound, Your body i have not found
I wish to carry you away with me Take your soul so we can be, Together for a blissful radiant eternity...
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Must i forget... To hard to remember, The thoughts of an Innocent child come December
Looking for all those gifts under the tree But there was never any there for me, Made me sad and cold inside
No more tears will i cry, Innocence lost, Never to reappear.... Christmas was like this every year.
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Scattered thoughts, Broken dreams, Word soft spoken... or so it seems
Whisper to me when i close my weary eyes, Remind me of all those very special times, On cold nights you use to hold me near, And for a faint glimmering moment i could feel you here, But that can't be... you're gone... you left with out me...
So many things i wanted to say Now i won't get the chance, Now i walk through life like i'm in a trance
Searching for something that can not be found, Because you are buried six feet under the ground
Try to numb myself to the pain I think one day i'll go insane, From holding back these emotions i hide They would wash over me like an angry sea tide
To see you again would be true bliss, I still remember are last kiss, It still lingers on my pale pastel lips
Maybe one day i'll see you again, And tell you all the things i wanted to say...... But that day will not be today. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Attachment, A single tread of spider web that binds us through are humanity, to another person,place, or thing. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 13, 2007 13:57:15 GMT -5
Half asleep, Half awake, Only give, But do not take
Steal away in the night, Like a common thief Your words bring me no relief
Do you sneak away to go see your Mistress? Is she your lover, your eternal temptress?
You tell me i'm the only one I've heard those poisoned words before, Now my heart fails to soar...
I no longer trust you You lie and deceive And you expect me to believe, All those little poison lies that you've conceived.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 14, 2007 6:08:18 GMT -5
You're always there to pick me up Some times you pull me down You always tell me to smile not frown
You always seem to know when i need you Your words ring so crystal true, Like tiny daggers, who wish to pierce me through
I'm always wrong And you're always right This seems to be the start of most of are fights
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You Remain Unforgiven
Stolen.... The words from my lips Took them and twisted them so cruelly Shattered... My dreams and hopes You tied them all down with thorny ropes
Decieved.... Me for the last time No longer will i fall victim to your lies
Destroyed... My life that most cursed of days And those painful memories will never fade away....
Fragmented.... I feel as if i am split in twain And you the self centered bastard are to blame
Forgivness.... I have none for you And if i said i did that would be untrue...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 15, 2007 0:10:08 GMT -5
In your arms Waiting for your dark kiss I loss myself in this sinful bliss
Be gentle i might break I am an empty vessel, And your love i will gladly take
Are bodies wrapped together, Pull me in deeper, Enrapture my mind and soul in this one moment in time
For a split second are souls touch, And this plain of existence ceases to exists, It's just you, me, and unmeasurable ecstasy
Are moans of pleasure, And of pain So seductively whispered, could not be contained
They echo into the darkness Where they are swallowed, And disappear into simple nothingness
Are lustful pleasures now complete We now drift off into boundless sleep....
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I am so cold, Are at least that's what i've been told
No more smiles shall cross my face I'll always end up in second place
Never can i compare, To your lovely indian goddess with raven hair
She has left you broken inside And you can not hide it no matter how hard you try
This wicked flame of love i have for you is extinguished And one day i wish, I will meet some one who inspires these feelings in me Some one who can set my heart free....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 16, 2007 12:35:49 GMT -5
This is a work in progress.
Victim
I was a victim of circumstance, Not of chance
I was raped and abused My humanity i did lose
And all the justice system could do for me, Was to tell me to get a restraining order and let things be
What a pile of shit...!!! I was hurt and all my mind could think of was revenge
Bitter sweet revenge... The twisted thoughts have crossed my mind a couple times, But then wouldn't i be the same as him?
I am a victim And i do not wish to inflict my pain on to others Only to teach that are system is flawed That punishment is never served even if you have just cause...
I wish i could sit in a courtroom, And tell people how that asshole has hurt me Maybe then i could find some peace with my words released
But that can not be, He still scares me, And those painful memories will never fade away...
Can someone please tell me where the justice is in that?
People need to see that victimization extends beyond the crime That it changes people from the inside out, And it's all because of a heinous crime perpetrated on them by someone else.
I now live in perpetual fear, That he will find me and finished what he started Now i feel trapped inside myself... No one should have to feel like this
Are justice system is not fair The criminal has more rights than the victim they've abused, Does this leave anyone else confused?
Maybe one day this never ending cycle of bull shit will end, But it will be to late for me and countless others, We will all be broken inside....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 17, 2007 10:07:00 GMT -5
Holding me back
I can't go to sleep I don't want to be a prisoner to my mind
I am haunted once again My mind likes to play tricks on me
Wish my memories could just fade away Like storm clouds leaving after a heavy rain
But i am tormented night after night I live in fear, That when you find me my end will be here
No longer do i wish to dream I just want some peace, And that i can never have knowing that you've been released
I hide with in myself, I build walls that no one can tear down, I make myself numb, I try to forget how to feel...
But i can't..... I just can't.... I am only human no matter how much i try to denie it
One day i will be free, I will no longer be haunted, I will then realize that the only thing holding me back is... ME.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 17, 2007 15:11:59 GMT -5
Work in progress:Chains
I wish i could break free of these chains They weight me down on the inside, No one can set me free...
I drowned out everything with dope,booze, and little white lies But still I'm shackled down on the inside, No one to set my emotions free...
I hide myself from the world, In order to feel secure No one does understand me...
To free myself from these chains, I would have to face my fear, Is there someone to stand beside me?
I am alone But i will stand tall and face my fear head on No longer will my fear control me...
I will finally shed these chains and be free No longer chained down, I can be truly be free to once again be me.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 18, 2007 8:30:41 GMT -5
I heard a woman singing last night, A slow,smooth, bitter sweet song It brought tears to my eyes
I went outside to see who it was Death's breath was every where, So cold and foggy, I could feel it in my bones
I heard the singing once again And i froze in fear, I knew that Death was near
The song i here, Can only be explained as a Beansidhe wail So calming though....
The song it must not be for me, But another poor unfortunate soul Death is quick to arrive when the beansidhe's song is done
And with the slow rising of the sun the song is done As i slowly walk back to my place i see no fog, The sun has banished it back where it belongs
But as i arrive at my place i see a ambulance next door Now i know who the beansidhe was singing for, Death has listened to the song and took my neighbors life
I feel so numb... but the sun it warms me And i now that one day soon the beansidhe will sing for me, Then Death will come swift and unforgiving.
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One day i will find my way, Back to where i use to be, And then maybe i'll see that there is hope for me...
That nothing truly ends, It just starts over again, A new beginning to a somber end...
Life skips a beat and i find myself stuck, Stuck here with no way to escape, But all things must end and begin again..
Life is truly a perfect circle, So even and undivided, Pure and simple...
No ending in site, I'll have to look forward, Not behind...
My perfect circle is caving in, And then i realize, That i'm beginning again...
Maybe now i can start anew, Forget all things said and done, And be free to live my life again....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 18, 2007 15:22:34 GMT -5
Men are like poison, Cold,bitter,and hard to swallow.
Something i once said to a friend, it got a good chuckle out of her. ____________________________________________________ Work in progress: Angry Drunk Woman
Break me up Tear me down There is nothing left to take
I gave all the best away Wasted it all on someone else, Who didn't give a damn for me
I have nothing left to give But boy there are a few things i would gladly take, Like a passionate man and a cold stiff drink...
Twist them both around my finger, And watch them break...
Walk away with a clear conscience, After a night of heartbreak, It isn't my heart after all...
I warned him not to fall I am bitter and cold, I have no love left to give are to hold...
I am angry inside, I use the booze to hide, That i am shallow and empty deep inside...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 19, 2007 14:02:57 GMT -5
I am alone again Left to ponder and wonder what could have been...
I still feel so broken You took the best in me Now i am nothing, Have nothing...
I am empty And no one understands...
I hide my regrets deep inside They always linger on my mind They sneak into my dreams like unwelcome guest...
I am haunted by the What Ifs and the Whys No one can see how i truly feel...
I need to move forward But i'm always looking back, Trying to figure out where it all went wrong...
I feel as if nothing has meaning anymore I have closed life's cruel door, Slammed it close to all except a few....
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 20, 2007 15:40:12 GMT -5
Androphobia (Work in progress)
I hide myself far from them My mind has been traumatized I can no longer trust them...
Painful memories spark a rebellion in my mind, And i know this feeling of fear will never completely disappear...
I live my life day to day, Never really truly living at all I'm a pale shadow of who i use to be...
But oh how i wish to fall, Madly in love with one who could ease my fear, But those hurtful memories are always there...
They are like a steel bear trap, Ready to close on my chance of freedom and happiness...
Nothing works... No pill or hypnotism, I still remember and hurt, Like it all happened yesterday...
I try to strike back at those vicious demons in my mind But in the end i'm only fighting myself...
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Jul 22, 2007 22:12:13 GMT -5
Look at the monster i've become I can't even look at myself in a mirror anymore I've become the thing of my childhood nightmares...
I guess i always new it come to this... I saw this long ago, But i chose to ignore it and dismiss it...
I am not here nor there, Stuck somewhere i don't want to be Life never moves on for me...
Time stands still.... It halts for a brief moment, And then resumes as if it never paused at all...
I have transcended the mortal coil My spirit has soared above me looking in, And then i truly knew what i've become...
Not a monster after all, But who i was born to be all along...
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