bleeding_metal
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why?
Nov 22, 2005 10:32:42 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 22, 2005 10:32:42 GMT -5
why must i dwell in the past? why must i shatter like glass why must i be that sensitive why why why? why must the razor blade stab so many? why must the red water of pain so thick and so long come trickling into the sink of fury and hopelessness.
why?
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bleeding_metal
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poetry is the gateway to the unknown deminsions of a parallel universe that only exists in the mind
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why?
Nov 26, 2005 14:10:48 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 26, 2005 14:10:48 GMT -5
could i ever be alright? why must i be so dreary and rely on souly the substances that invade thy brain. why? why must dreams give way to nightmares why cant dreams and nightmares coinside? i must be enjoying this and i cant why
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bleeding_metal
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poetry is the gateway to the unknown deminsions of a parallel universe that only exists in the mind
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why?
Nov 27, 2005 20:13:30 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 27, 2005 20:13:30 GMT -5
why must the heart break when shadows enter why not could it be like the brain why not go insane why not spin into many sphericals of rage and fury? thoughts and pictures enter the brain and nothing spin into hexes of witchcraft and tarot cards wizards dwelling in the caves of the wondering mind demons feeding souly on the fears of the heart spooking the young, yet to become dreams. killing the already became nightmares. why so much bloodshed for so little results
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bleeding_metal
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Nov 28, 2005 14:18:42 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 28, 2005 14:18:42 GMT -5
this evil blood filled sink beckons me come closer my pet, come closer glass intimidates me and i feel weak razor blades, broken shards of my heart split the veins and leave a trace the pain is Reconcilable the splitting of the brain and the cells screaming in fury cut in half and unable to mend
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bleeding_metal
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why?
Nov 28, 2005 18:50:13 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 28, 2005 18:50:13 GMT -5
wondering thoughts and distilled dreams gears of the mind tinkering away gears winding round gears green lights indicating nothing wrong in a state of ok-ness but am i really ok?
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bleeding_metal
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Nov 28, 2005 18:56:37 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 28, 2005 18:56:37 GMT -5
what is triggering me to jump head first head first into a concrete pool? guilt, joy,belligerent pain they're filling up the pool. creeping ever so slowly i dip 1 toe into the sweet, slimy ooze expecting it to be cold, i find it rather warm. whats this? is this the blood that makes up my mind? why is my life source on my toe?
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bleeding_metal
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poetry is the gateway to the unknown deminsions of a parallel universe that only exists in the mind
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Nov 28, 2005 18:57:19 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 28, 2005 18:57:19 GMT -5
where is the hole or wound that the slimy ooze slipped out? i dont remember doing that. but why are shards of glass in my grasp? why is there more blood dripping down? why am i all of a sudden becoming very dizzy i see the room spinning. cant hold on much longer. wont you save me?
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bleeding_metal
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Nov 29, 2005 14:03:03 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Nov 29, 2005 14:03:03 GMT -5
will the hands of society grasp my throat any tighter? will they end up destroying everything i have worked so hard for? what will my future bestow in my crystal ball? why wont the devils rejects hold out a hand and help me climb out of the hell hole called life why?
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bleeding_metal
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Dec 12, 2005 16:30:18 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Dec 12, 2005 16:30:18 GMT -5
feelings mutual and hating every minute of it. slashing the picture in the mirror. horrors that are incased in the glass now float on into the whirlwind of confusion cascading upon my shoulders looking so helpless and yet so guilty. why do i look this way? why do you only see what you want to. why cant you see the real me? the demonic figure i once was and will always be is it so damn important? that i look so pretty for you?
well i think not
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bleeding_metal
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Jan 27, 2006 14:14:09 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Jan 27, 2006 14:14:09 GMT -5
thoughts of happiness ended up in pain ended up with my heart empailed apon a stake the stake of deception, lies and hopelessness the grave has been dug and i am the reaper i am the one who dug my grave and now i have to lay in my own dispear and todays society holds the very fiber of the nuse suicide's grave beckons me lures me into total silence wanting ever so bad to be clarvoiant wanting ever to be so loved enough not to be lied to or decieved is that too much to ask? is that too much to want yet im deprived of the loyality of the other being remnants of my heart shatter in the wind scatter to find some lost love in yet another deminsion to be reprieved and tossed out like before. why? why? must i be deprived to feel that why must my heart be alone to dwel in the suicide grave i have dug for myself? why?
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bleeding_metal
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Jan 30, 2006 12:45:14 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Jan 30, 2006 12:45:14 GMT -5
is this just a cover up for the real me? why must i daydream of the unreal or the undead or the unfathomable? why must my brain be bothered by these incrimnal aqusations? why must i spell that wrong? do i make any sense or is it just a hoax to be loved can i ever be loved for my personality rather than my features that arnt what i like why why oh why should i be this r-tarded?
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bleeding_metal
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May 7, 2006 20:16:09 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on May 7, 2006 20:16:09 GMT -5
my heart just pulled out. you hurt me beyond repair. why???
why did you leave me for her she didnt even treat you right.
why?
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bleeding_metal
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poetry is the gateway to the unknown deminsions of a parallel universe that only exists in the mind
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why?
Jun 14, 2006 20:52:10 GMT -5
Post by bleeding_metal on Jun 14, 2006 20:52:10 GMT -5
you think im nothing but a little girl waiting for something that comes my way you think that im too young to defend myself you didnt take the initiative for it to work you think it was all my doing it wasnt you went back to her your mind wasnt in the right place you think that just because she was a pain you think that just because i cared for you enough enough to want to be with you the whole time
to be with you always was something i wanted to do not because i had to cause if i had to i'd never be with you i'd rather slit my wrist and bleed to death before i was to be with you only cause i wanted to
i wanted to be with you but that's all in the past i have moved on but why why why must i dwell in the shadows of pain and heartache that only bring death closer to my heart that blacken every inch of my heart that makes my blood coagulate that made it stop running warm that makes it run cold with vengance
but thanks to you thanks for you leaving me i now have a reason to live i have a reason to go on and a purpose to be loved and im glad its not by you
but why do i miss you just a little though???
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