Post by roommates on Jul 24, 2006 1:44:09 GMT -5
The shadows grow cold as my heart beats it's last pump
Surrounded by dark entities that feed off my misery continues to bring painful thoughts
"Just give up, who the HELL ARE YOU ANYWAYS?"
HAHAHA
What kind of madness is this?
The light of day is so far but yet I can see it off in the distance
My demons become more alive each passing day giving me advice about my life
"You have been abandoned, we are your friends now ha-ha."
NOOO
My heart beats no more
My emotions gone
A lifeless lump awaits the passing moment of life
Freedom is gained through death
Father, please forgive me for I do not know what I do...
"Stop that!"
"Why do you try? What have you received through the years?"
I do not know anymore...What have I gained?
"Us"
"Having hope only leads to more pain, cut loose all ties for we will take care of you."
The cold air suddenly becomes ill
I sit down and rest my back on a dead tree
Hands pressed to my face as the constant ramblings of my new companions continue to utter words of hurt in my mind
For this is the day I have come to realization
"Take this, we will send word of your final thoughts to those who do not understand. They want you to magically become perfect, they want you to serve their needs. Are your needs being met? No, you are alone. We will care for you."
I write a small letter to ensure I am still a prisoner but I have no bars
For those who may listen,
I have taken myself out of the picture. I give up. All my burdens have taken control of my life. I wish I could end this misery with a bullet but the only ones who listen to me are the shadows that surround my life in the past years. Leave me be. I am giving up my rights to my only daughter. She does not need to be exposed to my mental disease. I vowed to never have her grow up in two households, it is not right. I served my country but my country does not help me through this time. If God can forgive those who broke a covenant with him then I am sure God will forgive me. I will not fight for full custody or even joint custody. No matter what you do, my life won't get better so abuse me, send authorities at me, I don't care anymore. My shadow friends will always be here haunting me and making my life miserable. Misery is something I have grown accustomed too, to be happy would make me uncomfortable. Call me psycho if you will...I expect it.
"Don't you feel better now?"
Leave me alone for a moment
With the letter given to those who refuse to leave me, I begin to shed the last tear from my soul
"We're going to be together forever."
Surrounded by dark entities that feed off my misery continues to bring painful thoughts
"Just give up, who the HELL ARE YOU ANYWAYS?"
HAHAHA
What kind of madness is this?
The light of day is so far but yet I can see it off in the distance
My demons become more alive each passing day giving me advice about my life
"You have been abandoned, we are your friends now ha-ha."
NOOO
My heart beats no more
My emotions gone
A lifeless lump awaits the passing moment of life
Freedom is gained through death
Father, please forgive me for I do not know what I do...
"Stop that!"
"Why do you try? What have you received through the years?"
I do not know anymore...What have I gained?
"Us"
"Having hope only leads to more pain, cut loose all ties for we will take care of you."
The cold air suddenly becomes ill
I sit down and rest my back on a dead tree
Hands pressed to my face as the constant ramblings of my new companions continue to utter words of hurt in my mind
For this is the day I have come to realization
"Take this, we will send word of your final thoughts to those who do not understand. They want you to magically become perfect, they want you to serve their needs. Are your needs being met? No, you are alone. We will care for you."
I write a small letter to ensure I am still a prisoner but I have no bars
For those who may listen,
I have taken myself out of the picture. I give up. All my burdens have taken control of my life. I wish I could end this misery with a bullet but the only ones who listen to me are the shadows that surround my life in the past years. Leave me be. I am giving up my rights to my only daughter. She does not need to be exposed to my mental disease. I vowed to never have her grow up in two households, it is not right. I served my country but my country does not help me through this time. If God can forgive those who broke a covenant with him then I am sure God will forgive me. I will not fight for full custody or even joint custody. No matter what you do, my life won't get better so abuse me, send authorities at me, I don't care anymore. My shadow friends will always be here haunting me and making my life miserable. Misery is something I have grown accustomed too, to be happy would make me uncomfortable. Call me psycho if you will...I expect it.
"Don't you feel better now?"
Leave me alone for a moment
With the letter given to those who refuse to leave me, I begin to shed the last tear from my soul
"We're going to be together forever."