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Post by Jared Sorensen on Jan 21, 2006 3:18:10 GMT -5
The truth about me is I am always scared. To love to belong to be accepted by my peers.
I don't see myself as anything but a pawn in gods plan to see who dies first.
I don't do drugs to have fun, I do them to escape and run from all my fears. I drink to numb everything, the world my mind, her memory.
I am afraid of people seeing me covered in scars sad face depression teary eyes and an obession to not feel human.
This is me and I hate every part.
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Post by _black phoenix_ on Jan 24, 2006 15:31:02 GMT -5
you may hate yourself at times, but there are those who love you very much.. more than youd ever realize. dont ever forget about that, no matter what state you are in.
simple, honest work. straight from the heart. it takes guts to post writing like this.
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DarkenTheSky
Demon Disciple
Beneath the Watery Lust Garden, my Secret Lies. . .
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Post by DarkenTheSky on Feb 7, 2006 3:47:25 GMT -5
very sad. . . the very fear i have about the people i care about who choose to do drugs. doing drugs for reasons such as these are what cause dependencies. people are far better addictions to use to cure such feelings. . . if u find the right one(s). "i dont do drugs to have fun i do them to escape. . . to numb everything. . . her memory" that part struck me as painful, it feels like that sentence, that last 2 word sentence in that stanza is just dripping with pain. . . sorrow. . . it may just be a personal connection, but if it is that way for you as well, i wish i could offer comfort. . . i dont know why it feels that way. . . "an obsession to feel not human" i love that line, that is more legitimate to use drugs, a better argument, more easily understood and easy for me to accept as i am often plagued with such feelings. the ending sounds as if you are close to hitting bottom. . . make sure you come back up after you get there, you'd be greatly missed. . . . overall, very 'to the point' lines in this. good ideas, imagery is kinda vague, but there are lines that will permanently remain in my skull, like good quotes from books or movies usually do.
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Erus
Dark Initiate
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Post by Erus on May 1, 2006 15:58:19 GMT -5
Brutally honest self examination, that does take guts to put out there. It's can also be a good first step in the long, hard walk away from the toll of slow self destruction the drugs and booze will eventually take. I believe all should make their own decisions in this area, but it looks like you have the strength to move it to the next level and proactively take positive steps. Good luck.
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Post by MusicalMasterpiece on May 1, 2006 16:34:42 GMT -5
i mourn for people like you. heres something for everyone to think about. im not trying to impose anything, but i hope that it can help people's feelings like yours. ive been through similar things, and ive done similar things to cover up whatever negative emotions i was feeling, but then, i asked the Holy Spirit to help me, and i was snatched up out of my rock-bottom pit and lifted up into a great life. im not trying to preach either, im just trying to help out with a personal testimony. i hope that something helps you man. ill be here for ya anytime. musicalmasterpiece@hotmail.com 660-368-4709 and if christianity isnt your thing, dont worry about it, ill leave it out of the conversations
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