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Post by _black phoenix_ on Nov 15, 2016 17:14:49 GMT -5
Pretty sure my landlord is bipolar. And shes got some super weird issues... says shes a great communicator, but bottles up problems then explodes on me. I got in trouble today cause i forgot a case of tools on the communal steps overnight(which she didnt need to use anyway). I got in trouble cause i forgot to lock the back door(once in 2 months). She acts nice and says everythings fine then freaks out over tiny things other people wouldnt notice. It looks like shes snooping through my stuff and purposefully listening in on my conversations through the vents. As I fix one problem, a new one comes up. I have to find a house in 2 weeks and my income support hasnt kicked in from 3 months ago yet... i dont have enough money for damage deposit or all of December rent. Ahhhh
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Post by _black phoenix_ on Nov 16, 2016 19:43:37 GMT -5
I came up with a very last resort back up plan last night, which involves moving an 8 hour drive away. I finally got ahold of my income support guy and it looks like things should be resolved in 2 days, so ill have enough for rent & damage deposit on a new house for Dec 1st, as Ive got back pay for August-now. Huge relief, but I still need to lock down a house.
Im fairly sure the landlord has some unresolved PTSD or something similar. Ive picked out a pattern that the majority of her flip outs have to do with company or safety. Her huge meltdown involved crying and stamping her foot... shouting at me like a 5 year old having a temper tantrum. Never seen anything like it in all my life with an adult. I didnt even know she was uncomfortable with me having company over, she just bottled it up until she fell apart. Honestly in 2 months of living here I had my best friend over once, my old roommate once with his father-in-law to deliver couches and Geoff a few times. Im quite sure now that shes terrified of men and creates fake stories in her head based on limited information and then worries herself sick over it.
I have enough crap to fix in my life right now to deal with this unbalanced human. I can see she has unresolved issues/baggage but Im barely hanging on, let alone have the patience to sort out her garbage. Im tired of walking on eggshells and having her overly happy and saying she loves me(yes, literally) one minute, then bitchy the next.
Things seem to be improving. I keep getting wrenches thrown in, but I need to pay attention that there IS gradual improvement. And Geoff appears to be clean and staying clean, which is wonderful. I havent seen him with a beer in weeks either. He looks healthier and isnt up all night anymore. He started a job with regular hours and is doing a little of his own business on the side instead of a big, scrambly mess.
Wall of text. Was nice to get it out. Im doing ok.
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Post by _black phoenix_ on Nov 20, 2016 16:23:54 GMT -5
I got stood up on a date. He texted me like 15 hours later saying "sorry i fell asleep" and that was it. Called him out as a liar. I looked at his phone logs the last 2 days and he hasnt gone more than an hour or two without making outgoing calls, so it appears drugs are back on the scene and he most certainly wasnt asleep for our date. Gave him shit yesterday and said im not interested in a relationship if hes keeping a secret life from me. No reply. No texts or calls. No effort made at all. He probably thinks im making empty threats and waiting me out until im cooled down. Hes barely talked to me in the last 5 days so im just going to stop making contact i guess. This was his last chance. Im not interested if hes putting zero effort into fixing our trust issues. I love him and want to spend my life with him, but not at the expense of my sanity or hapiness. Its really hard letting go.
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Post by _black phoenix_ on Nov 27, 2016 10:53:33 GMT -5
Geoff seems to have gone through a life altering event, he wont tell me much about it but is actually so much more like his old self... im impressed but cautious. This hasnt happened before. His actions are lining up with his words consistantly for the first time in years.
Its the end of the month and i dont have a home lined up yet. There is no clear or easy path. Every option looks stressful and has its perils. Usually something stands out to me, but my gut says everything is sub parand i feel very nervous. I cant afford to live on my own here it seems, but i dont want to move back home to cheaper rent but no job. Not sure where the next few days will take me.
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Post by LonelyForsaken on Dec 3, 2016 19:51:30 GMT -5
You break my heart Leash.
I hope Geoff can turn his life around and keep his family together but you must keep you and your daughter in mind and first. In my experience, there is no chance at all he will stop using if he won't leave those "friends" and that life behind him. All contact must be broken with that life. It really does come down to making a "very clear" choice between one life or the other. He can’t live them both. Not even a little bit. Moving 8 hours away sounds like a smart thing for you to do right now. It might make it harder on him but it could force him to stop waffling and commit one way or the other. All you can do is offer support, under "clean" conditions, and remind him that you love him.
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Post by ValkyrieGoddess on Feb 20, 2017 12:45:48 GMT -5
For the first time in literally FOREVER i went on Facebook only to see some very very terrible and sad news. My cousin's 13 year old son died this past weekend in a Hunting accident. Being that i live in the South and don't keep in constant contact with my North ward relatives i feel so bad. The only thing i can do is tell them how my heart goes out to them and how sad we (my family down here) are for there loss.
---Life i NEVER easy but to be cut so short makes you really think about things.
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Post by twistedangel on Jul 5, 2017 4:37:59 GMT -5
Kk bit trivial but...while away working me a$$ off..bf gone an seen Green Day a band thats on me bucket list...not exactly blue but well peed off pffft
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Post by LonelyForsaken on Oct 17, 2017 14:51:23 GMT -5
Replace flamer, hackers, etc., with people and yah, I know what you mean. Honestly, it is only the love of one person that keeps me alive. Not sane, but alive. And he is dying.
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